Damaged

I believe I have eye damage due to diabetes. I hope I'm wrong but I don't think I am. I have an ophthalmologist appointment next month and I'll find out for sure. The odd thing is that the symptoms (kind of "blank" spots in my vision, mostly in my left eye, macular edema?) started after I started taking care of myself. I suppose I should discuss it with Eli but I don't know that I want to worry him before I find out what's going on.